Day 23 -- In the house day

Started to get outside and tackle those weeds in the front.  I had the calendar up on the pantry, and realized I had an appointment about insurance at 10:30 am.  So I spent the time getting the new software update and the appropriate categories and tags on all the transactions.
Harman was very helpful.  Had some problem with his knee -- thought he was going to fall because of it.  Anyway, he could not have been more willing to be helpful.  He is getting some forms for ownership changes on some policies, and more than once asked me to give him something he could do that would be helpful.  He is also going to get some projections on one policy, so we know what all the options are for changing ownership, and whether any modifications will be necessary.  Don't you just love all these minute details?  At least it keeps me from seeing a pity-party as anything welcoming or useful.
After Harman left, I spent most of the rest of the day working on the software and reaching out -- through the phone -- to others.  And out of all that, I now have a tentative luncheon date for Wed., a dinner date for Friday, and a luncheon on Monday.  Thurs. is already full with 2 doctor appointments and one business meeting.  Now I'm hoping I can get Christian and crew to come over on Saturday or Sunday -- finally decided what to do with those sprinklers.
Also did some reaching out to a neighbor and the guy who is taking care of feeding the lawn.  He was concerned about the way it looks (much worse than the lawn across the street) and we discussed appropriate watering.  My neighbor is involved in a fascinating program for educationally challenged people -- some of them as old as 40!
Looks like I am taking my advice -- getting out of the house, and finding ways to give instead of just receive (all be it tentatively). Also realized there is far more adventure and affirmation in reaching out to others than just waiting for them to come to me (I know that -- it just looks different now).  I think I used the admonition "be proactive" to myself.  I'm realizing just how much Margaret and I depended on each other to take the lead in being proactive.  I learned today that the more I reach out to others, the more I honor Margaret's memory -- and I get really good feelings from that!  Even made it all through songs 2 & 3 today.  Learned that there is a whole lot more in those songs than just past memories and regrets for things undone.  There is affirmation and wholeness there if I let ALL of the words and rhythms be.