Day 78 -- Today was good

And, I am anticipating trying on the "Darth Vader" mask tomorrow.  I am really ready to give up the night sweats and the momentary naps that happen under various circumstances -- usually while I am still and no matter what I am doing.
Started the Wednesday morning routine today -- classes from 9 - 12: they will continue through the first week in August.  The great thing about the class today was Sherry taught it -- she is soooo good!  It is very obvious that she loves teaching, and does it in such a caring way.  Steve S. was there -- things are not going any better at his house -- if anything it is getting worse.  He is in the mode of coping by just taking whatever happens one day -- sometimes moment -- at a time. And this process has been going on for so long.  Bob H. also wanted to find out what I know about what is going to happen to the TOSC.  With all the changes that are already in place, there is still much to be settled.  And with the sudden change of CEO (Alan Bennett who presided over the changes that brought Russ Smyth on board) one can only hope that Smyth's function was to get the company leaner and meaner particularly at the top -- carrying out the Board's design (generated while Bennett was interim CEO).  Am going to have to see if I can get Al to have a pizza soon -- maybe I'll get to see where they are moving.
I guess that if left to grieving people, there would not be phone calls and mailings that increase after a loved one dies of cancer (or any of the other dreaded killers -- I suspect).  By the same token, they would be able to shame the telemarketers who call and asked for the deceased by name.  I think in a perfect world, there might be a little concern for the person left after a death, and respect for the deceased.  But this is not a perfect world.  I can only believe these systems exist the way they are to make sales, and no individual is more important than generating calling and mailing lists.  The DNC directory becomes meaningless when the definition of "having a business relationship" is so loose, and the enforcement of the rule is so lax.  I pity the poor person trying to make minimum wage calling nameless faces to read meaningless scripts that are designed to separate people from their money when it is the least opportune time. I think it is just plain shameful.  Unfortunately that parameter seems to have gone the way of the Edsel.  I just know that when I get one of those phone calls, I find myself going back over some painful ground that I thought was smoother.  I really don't like that.  And particular when it is at the hands of some anonymous stranger with a very different agenda than mine.  Maybe that is just part of dealing with some of reality that is a good part of grief work.