Tomorrow is our 51st Anniversary. I have received so many very kind and genuine thanks from folks who got our 50th Anniversary celebration card. Little did we know that rather than have 10 or more anniversaries to celebrate the 50th would be our last. I look back 50 years and think of the anticipation, terror, and excitement that I was experiencing on that last night as a single person. Now, all these years later, that is some terror, not much excitement and a lot of wonderment as to what is in store for me. (I almost wrote us). And, strangely enough, "us" is still true. I can't go any where in this house without some physical reminder of Margaret. I can't think of very much without an awareness that she is with me, and caring about us.
So as tomorrow approaches, there are some things I know. Margaret will be here but I can only see her in all the corners of my mind. She still "fills up my spaces", and I know her spirit is real and with me. I know I will continue to get reminders that her spirit is with others -- family, friends, and an untold number of former students and their families. All of that is a strangely comforting reassurance.
What I know is I am in a much better place to deal with tomorrow than I was 50 years ago. The difference? 51 years of experiencing Margaret's love and knowing that the spirit of that love is here to see me though what ever happens.
I still miss her.
I still miss her too. Been thinking about you today.
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