After successfully completing the second DSP, I was ready for bed right after the interview on Ch. 13 of Renee with Josh and Jarrod at their home. Made sure I captured the teaser and then the interview at 10:30. Sent a text to Renee afterward confirming I had captured the teaser, interview, and the interview with the lawyer from KEL that followed.
So I was in bed by 11. Started out with the chin strap that arrived yesterday and went to sleep fairly quickly. Woke up about 2:30 or so, and stayed until a little after three. Thought it might be the chin strap initially, so took it off, and tried to get back to sleep. No luck. So I got up, finished up the paperwork for the DSP, sent Anna her copy of the FTE and a copy of the spread sheet that I used for that class (it is really hers), and a letter telling her about the conversation initiated by the librarian concerning materials fee collection. Got that all finished, ready for mail this morning, and went back to bed. I knew I did not have anything until the Brunch with Debbie at 10am.
Did not put on the chin strap, got back to sleep, and woke up around 7:45am. So I really did my 8 hours in two shifts. Woke up, shaved, showered, did the morning routine -- coffee only, and was prepared to leave at 9:45.
The meeting with Debbie (two hours) was very good and quite productive. I was wanting to see how well I would do. During the conversations, there were a few, predictable tight throat moments, but the conversation flowed and I was able to articulate some of the real "core" struggles that seems to be with me, lurking in the background. I really think what is going on is my finding contemporary experience in dealing with so many things that for so long were "team" or "we" issues. All the familiar coping mechanisms were predicated on the two of us -- and they don't work with one of us no longer physically present. What I am learning is that doesn't mean the spiritual connection is broken -- it is still firmly there. I just do not have much background to experience that without the limits of some human form or being. And at the same time, I am trying to find a way to let that experience live with me and my human limits. And at that point, the conceptualization continues -- I just have not words or framework to express or describe.
When I got back home, William F. was waiting in the drive -- I had gotten a call from him yesterday, but did not know he was coming. We had a good meeting. He brought me up to speed on his project, including the start of creating a foundation (he wants it to be a 501(c)3). He was looking for help in including that entity to achieve his dream of services to under-served and underprivileged gaining education beyond high school. This is very much an ongoing conversation. I am going to pull out my files and help him with completing the creation of a no-for-profit corporation, and we started the conversation about setting up a test project probably in Appalachia -- and perhaps with Trish Brown's involvement. We shall see.
I finally realized that my body was really trying to tell me that it was just not about to cope with the inaction I was imposing on it. So this evening, I started the 6 week challenge with the exercise program using the Wii. I haven't really kept my resolve to walk every day, and am going to get help from the program to put me through a programmed exercise 4 days a week. The first session today gave more than adequate evidence that I have put this off too long. My goal is to make the 6 weeks, and then see if I can work out some weight loss and a daily exercise program -- and maybe even join one of those senior programs in a neighborhood recreation center. And for now -- I'm more than ready for bed!
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