Day 111 -- What's up?

I'm really not sure what is going on. 
Today, I fixed myself Chicken Parmesan to go with the Spanish Rice and Succotash that I had made yesterday.  That's two meals -- with some veggies left over.   For dinner, a tossed salad of lettuce+, apples, blueberries, grapes, peanuts, and croutons.  I felt good about the meals -- at least they are fun to fix, and I think qualify as healthy and satisfying. 
Got Della Perdue's address from Jo Ann Hamby -- the bonus was getting to chat with Jo Ann and we will hopefully work together this tax season.  Sent a sympathy card to Della and a response to Ann Newsome.  That was satisfying -- but maybe brought something along with it.
Found a stationary box of Margaret's -- and found the courage to  put it in the wastebasket.  Soon after that, someone called asking for Margaret -- they would only say they were sorry when I told them she is no longer with us -- and would not say what the call was about.  Also got a letter from St. Joes Hospital reminding Margaret that her annual mammogram was due with instructions about making an appointment and how to prepare and what to bring.  I was tempted to call them up with an "How dare you" call, but then realized they were just doing their job, and their system is not the best coordinated.  Maybe some of that residual was lurking somewhere on the edge of awareness.
Had a great conversation with Christian.  He is going well -- still medicated in anticipation of passing the stone the rest of the way out.  He sounded well, and was very willing to talk about the whole experience.  Hopefully, after I finish my appointment with Mike T. tomorrow, I'll drive over to their place and see what I can do to help as they are preparing to move to a house.
Did a lot of emailing and a little calling about the breakfast on Thursday.  Seems Al will not be able to make it after all,  Dan still will be accompanying Meghan to her ob appointment.  Talked to George about Dan's request to find a home for some of the "stuff" on the Tax Side (he's moving all the gear out of Benjamin Center).  Sent an email to the TOSC team affirming our meeting on Thursday -- even with Al, we still have a lot to talk about and share. 
As I was watching tv tonight, I found myself weepy in really strange places.  Instances -- whether in commercials or programming -- of someone being affirmed, realizing the possibility of a dream, having someone to care and care for ... all themes that really hit in the midst my alone experience right now.  What I must be overlooking is the obvious.  I am reacting to my new life that has some very familiar parts missing -- and I don't like it. 
Tomorrow is really a step into next year's tax season, followed by another on Thursday.  I have not idea which way things will be going.  I will just have to wait and see what opportunities I will have to play out the hand I'm holding.