Maybe on the first day of a new life, the things to get done would not wake me up. But they did -- and I started finding out what it is like to live with over half of me gone. Thankfully the chores -- clean up from guests and bring home another, made the alone part of this new being together less noticeable -- or so I thought. I had to make myself do routine things -- the constant thought being I can just sit and go mindless in front of the tube. Thankfully I did not give in -- got the place straight and brought my friend home.
How thoughtful of Marcia and Aaron to leave in the middle of the night -- so I would sleep after a very full and stressful day. They are really great, and I realized just how much I needed them, love them and how awed I am seeing their caring and their supportive relationship. That view goes in the book for strong support when I start toward the "awful s".
The reality is: Margaret's physical presence is no longer here; Life continues for me; Margaret's presence is with me; I am very sad; and I know I can make it. Though alone in the sense that I no longer have my partner to be with, fuss over, and do for: I have the great gift of Lee and Marcia, and their support, companionship, and the incredible hug that comes from them, their partners, and my grandchildren/great-grandchild! I am truly the richest man in the world -- in the middle of a life-altering loss.
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